Every Thursday we have Kindermusik class. All of you mommies out there know that it isn't the easiest task getting yourself, your baby, the big ol' diaper bag, & all of the supplies you may need for your one hour outing ready & out the door. But somehow, by the grace of God, we always manage to get to Kindermusik in one piece. Today marked a very special day at Kindermusik class- we could bring our little ones dressed up in their Halloween costumes!! What fun! I was very excited for Jett to have his very first "class" Halloween dress up party! I got up early to lay out his little costume, I packed up his diaper bag, got myself ready, fed him, & then I did something SO SO SO stupid. I knew that I would have to wake him from his nap to make it to music class in time, so I put part of his costume on him {black pants & a black shirt} to nap in so that when he would wake from his nap, I could change his diaper, throw on the other part of his costume, & run out the door. That's the problem with planning & having a little one- they don't ever go along with your plans. I am learning, folks. Slowly, but surely, I am learning.
I gently woke my tired little guy from his nap. He was groggy, but happy to be awake! Yay! Part of the battle won! I picked him up out of his crib, & felt something wet. NO!!!!!!!!!!! PLEASE NO!!!! NOT TODAY!!!! Sure enough, he had peed out his diaper {which of course he never does except for today, of all days} & onto his shirt & pants. THE shirt & pants for his costume!!! Almost immediately I could feel myself starting to unravel. As I was stripping him of his stinky, soggy costume, I started to feel tears welling up & my mind going a mile a minute -- Great. Now he doesn't have a costume. I can't take him to class without a costume. He would be the only one without one. We can't go. I spent all of this time packing, getting myself & him ready, & now we are stuck at home. Jett is going to miss his very first Halloween class party. Just fabulous. { Tears are falling at this point}. Maybe he could just wear a Halloween shirt- NO, that's dumb! How could I be so stupid to put his costume on early?! I should have waited until we were out the door - maybe even AT class before I put it on him. I know better!!! {I try to call Jared- no answer} UGGGHH! Why isn't he answering! I don't know what to do! I don't have anyone to talk to! Now I am going to sit at home all day & beat myself up over this!
Then my mind quickly shifted gears-- No. We are NOT staying home! This is much too important to miss! Jett doesn't know what he is wearing- he could be wearing just his diaper & could care less! We are going! Figure it out, Holly! Improvise. Throw something together. Wipe your tears. Get your big girl panties on. Do whatever you have to do- but get your butt to Kindermusik today!
I quickly scoured the closet for another shirt & pants {not my first choice, but whatever}, threw on the rest of his costume, & bolted out the door like a wild woman!
Once in the car, I calmed down, & almost had to laugh. Here I was 10 minutes ago, about to call my whole entire day off because of a little pee?! Seriously? Jett wasn't wearing the EXACT pants & shirt I had in mind, but in the grand scheme of things, who cares? I couldn't believe I had let something so trivial shake me like it did. I felt kinda silly. But then, I had to stop & give myself just a little credit. About a month ago, I actually would have called my whole day off. I would have said, "The heck with it. Jett's costume is ruined. My cheeks are stained with tears. I'm staying home." A month ago, I wasn't good at picking up the pieces after a meltdown- at bouncing back. But not today. Today, in the midst of the unravelling, the tears, Jett's screaming {that I falied to mention earlier}, I found my perspective. I sucked it up, & realized what is really important here. Not what we're wearing, not things going as planned, but that my son gets to go to class & have fun with his friends. It may not seem like a big deal to anyone else, but to me, it feels like growth. I am learning that life is messy, it's complicated, & it most certainly does NOT go as planned. I am learning to take it in stride & move on. That's big for me.
Kindermusik class was just as I imagined it would be-full of fun! All of the kiddos were dressed up & looked absolutely adorable- my little Jett Jett included {even with his improvised costume} :) We ooed & awwed over all of the adorable costumes {as there is nothing cuter than a baby all dressed up in a costume}. I am so glad I didn't say "the heck with it" & miss out on all the fun!
Undoubtedly, there will be more mommy meltdowns up ahead. Perhaps next time I feel one coming on, I will be able to take it in stride even quicker- you know, before the tears & all. We shall see...
Oh, Holly!!! He looked absolutely adorable and his costume was SO clever! You are a good momma!
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