Tuesday, November 2, 2010

one of "those" days

I'm gonna take this moment to gripe just a bit. Scratch that, I'm gonna take this moment to throw a full fledged hissy fit. If you don't want to hear about my terrible day, you may want to quietly exit now. If you've don't mind a little whining & complaining, grab the popcorn, sit back, & get ready for an earfull.

I'm overwhelmed. I'm cranky. I am all outta whack right now. I feel like nothing in my life is in order right at this particular moment. I've got probably 10 different to-do lists laying around, & I am terrified to combine them into one list, because I'm afraid that, that one {very big} list just might send me over the edge. I have so much on my plate right now, & my mind is just spinning. I don't know where to start.

Jett isn't feeling good, & I realize that's probably the reason he screamed bloody murder ALL day long. But after 6 hours of it, I had had it. I was done. I tried holding him, playing with him, singing to him, nothing worked. He just wanted to scream...so I let him. At one point I had to just put him in his jumperoo & let him scream it out. Not fun.

My feelings are hurt right now. Jett is preferring Jared over me these days & though I am trying to not let it bother me, my efforts aren't working. I should be thankful that he loves his DaddyBoy so much {& I am}, but I can't help but want to scream, "I only carried you for 9 months, I only take care of you EVERY single day, wipe your nose, your butt, & whatever else needs wiping, & you are going to cry & reach for HIM????" I am sure it is a phase, & I am probably being a tad sensitive, but I can't help it. It bothers me. Oh, & when Jared came home tonight, guess who was happy as a clam, & never cried a bit?! I guess he got it all out during the 6 hours he cried with me.

Today I ventured out to Babies R Us, Sam's, & the grocery store {what was I thinking}. By the time I finished shopping at the grocery store, I was just ready to get home. But nope! I had to bag my own groceries at Hy-Vee first! I was so ticked! It would be different if they were short handed, but I watched as TWO managers chatted it up without a care in the world! Ugghhh. Then the really fun part of that trip was carrying in all of those groceries, huge box of diapers, & various items from Sam's that were scattered about the back of my Jeep because you know, they don't believe in grocery bags at Sam's. And don't let me forget to add that all the while, I had a screaming child on my hip, so I had to unload everything one handed. Oh, what fun!

And just one more thing, & I'll be done. Housework. I am so sick of the stinking housework. Every time I turn around there is a dirty pile of laundry to be washed, or a basket full of clothes to be folded, or the dishwasher needs loaded, or it needs unloaded. It never ends! I am so sick of dirty laundry & dirty dishes, I could spit {or actually verbalize the cuss words that are running through my head}! I feel like I'm barely treading water with the housework, & any minute I could drown in it. Any hints as to how you stay at home moms make it all work?

Well, I suppose I have had enough of a gripe session. Now I have to go & humble myself & apologize to my husband who I was grumpy with when he came home from work.

Hissy fit over.

{Oh, I know I usually add pics to my posts, but trust me- you don't want a pic of this day. It wasn't pretty.}

1 comment:

  1. Oh my! This is how I feel a lot of times! Nothing ever goes the way I want and when there is a sick little one, it NEVER goes smoothe. I gave up shopping with the kids because it takes 3 times as long, you always forget something and it isn't fun! Having 2 makes it easier to just go by myself or send Jeff.
    I'm with you on the laundry thing too! It is so annoying to have to do laundry just about everyday! hehe!
    Don't feel bad about griping to your husband because I do it too! It's just part of being a stay at home mom. I remember my mom doing it too. I love being home but it really is the hardest job that I have ever had emotionally.
    I thought it was getting easier because Everett is getting older but now, Hudson is starting to skip naps and boy is it hard to keep him in line!
    I hope you have a better day today! I liked this post!