I Got This.

After two weeks of being home with us, Jared ventured back to his ol' 8-5 yesterday. 

Baking cookies on our last day before Jared had to go back to work

That left two kiddos, two sets of diapers, two schedules, two routines, two sets of tears. 

And only one me.

I'll admit, I was nervous & anxious & downright scared to death. I had back-up standing by just in case the day spun out of control & I found myself in need of a village to come & rescue me.

But ya know what I found out about myself?

I got this.

To my surprise, I think I'm handling this whole mom of two kids bit pretty gracefully so far. Now that's not to say we haven't had our frazzling moments--like Lulla deciding to be a stinker for me yesterday & not allowing me to put her down for one. single. second--not the swing, not the bouncy seat, not the bassinet--only Momma's arms could console my sweet girl. Or getting undressed TWICE to hop in the shower only to have to jump out & redress again in my jammies because my kiddos had other plans for my day. Or the explosion of a diaper that I had no idea little baby girls were capable of--I think the neighbors probably heard me squeal on that doozy. Or figuring out how to put on a panty liner with the use of only one hand because I've got a squishy baby cradled in the other arm--hey, you do whatcha gotta do. 

It's busy. It's chaotic. It's hectic. But when a day like today happens--where I muster up the courage for my first outing by myself with the kids {Kids. Plural. Love it.} & make it to Kindermusik with ten minutes to spare, where books are read before naptime with a baby snuggled in one arm & a toddler nestled against me on the other side, where my babies take a nap at exactly the same time so Momma can squeeze one in for herself--it's these days that I know will be the ones that get me through the blown out diapers, the toddler tantrums & the sleep deprivation of having a newborn in the house. 

I've said it numerous times over the past two weeks-- I love being a mom to two kids. 

Sure I know there will be a day that comes & knocks me off my high horse. I'll call up my husband in tears & tell him I can't take it anymore! I may have to call in my village who waits quietly on standby. I may melt down. I may lose my cool. I may think I'm not cut out for being a mom to two kids. I may question my sanity.

But for now? 

I got this.

A text between Jared & I after Kindermusik class. Why thanks Hubs, I kinda feel like a rockstar today.